I’m currently doing a juice fast in Bali, and one of the biggest things for me whilst being here is the ability to get out of my comfort zone and do shit that I would be way too scared to usually do at home. So, a couple of days go I decided to take on the activity of rapid water rafting and boy was it the most amazing experience ever!
The rafting adventure started off with us having to literally sign a life waiver form, to which my brain was cautiously reading and evaluating and thinking “if I die this place isn’t liable for my own life – fuck!” So to put it simply, I was shitting myself! I signed the form and then had to make my way down into the mountain and what felt like 5000 big ass slippery steps WITH MY THONGS ON mind you, I was thinking “if I slip and smash my head I just might fall down this mountain and bla bla bla” my mind was going off!
Fast-forward 15-20 minutes later and of course I was one of the first ones to get into the raft, I somehow managed to get a front row seat on this thing too. The tour guide was explaining how it would work, what instructions we had to follow from the driver at the back of the raft (e.g. boom boom meant hold on there’s a drop). When we took off, I was petrified beyond belief, yelling like my life was almost over and when we went down the first drop I held onto that thing so tight my fists were in pain from clenching. Despite the fear that was running through my body, after the first few drops something profound happened, I GOT OVER IT! As soon as the first 15 seconds of it were over I was in this state of heavenly bliss at the sight around me, the mountain was full of greenery and waterfalls, I honestly felt like I was in a movie. It was beautiful. Stunning. So serene.
The driver at the back of my raft was a funny guy that liked to throw inappropriate but hilarious jokes around. At first I was skeptical of him and being in a foreign country like Bali it’s easy for someone of my upbringing to subconsciously judge the people here, I hate to say this but I was in a complete state of distrust for this lovely person (who was in control of this raft) who had done absolutely nothing wrong to me. He could see that I was scared, so to get me out of the funk I was in he said to me “Sam, you like for swim”. I looked at him like he was a madman moron trying to kill me, I really did. I declined his offer and told him I didn’t want to swim in the moving waters. About 5 minutes later he asked me again, “Sam you like for swim?”, except this time he jumped out the raft himself, putting his hands up to me, “come on, you can swim here see” – my pertification (I just made up a word – hah!) levels at this point were high, my bloody raft driver was OUTSIDE THE RAFT, and I was inside – fuck!
I looked and was like “noooo way”, then another lady in the raft decided to follow suit and also jumped into the water. Then another jumped in, then yep you guessed it – I also jumped in! The guide saw I was kind of shitting myself so he then told me to lay my body in the stream of moving water and to allow myself to float down (legs straight head up), uuuhhh another outside of the comfort zone box was about to be ticked… I didn’t do it until the guide came up behind me, put his arms around me and assured me of the situation, he told me I was safe. I was so scared to let this random Balinese stranger wrap their arms around me to support me in facing this fear, I really was! My brain was thinking “who is this person trying to TOUCH ME, he could drown me right now.”
So why am I writing this blog post – because I feel that there are many of us (me included) that are just not trusting of each other. And when you place your trust into another person, especially during those comfort zone breakthroughs, that’s when great stuff starts to happen. That is when we grow and evolve as a human race for the better. In that moment, I grew into a more loving and trusting person, I know I did. Being a corporate worker I’ve always been a head thinker, in my head “gotta do this”, “gotta get bla done”, “what the hell is this person thinking they talk so much shit”, my mind just goes on and on and on and on and on! But when we let ourselves go and surrender from a place of trust, we open up out HEARTS (not our heads) to feel and experience amazing things. So next time you’re on the edge of your comfort zone I urge you to just dive into it, the same way that I jumped into the water, you too can jump into yours! Us beings need to be more trusting of one another, it’s time to start supporting each other!
Remember – Be happy. Be true. Be you!
Love and light from paradise in Bali